Satisfied

I'd like to say THANK YOU to all the girls for an awesome weekend at Vegas :) It was a vacation to remember. Now that we're back, we must face reality once again. It felt good to leave behind all the stress I've been going through at school. Thank you thank you thank you, I needed that!

Vegas

Oh another vacation at Vegas :) I've been so busy this week! My test results came in and I ended up not really passing the test I've been reviewing. A 65% to be exact! So sad, but I swear, the test was extremly difficult!!! They were full of "None of the above" to my favorite "All of the above" and last but not least...TRUE or FALSE? What the heck is this professor thinking?! This has been by far, the worste test I've taken in my entire educational career. The class average wasn't too high (70%) so I don't feel as bad, but still! I at least wanted to pass.

I hope Vegas makes me feel better. I don't know what to wear! Once I get there, I am going to take a shot and do some major shopping!! Who's with me?! hah I know 90% of you guys STILL don't know what to wear. All I gotta say is..GOOD LUCK!

Please

Hi, school has been creeping up on me! My first test is on Wednesday. I hate taking the first test in a new class because you don't know what to expect. Hopefully I do well! I also have another test the following week! and then another! Aaaah, when will it stop. I should really get my act together. I am also attending the career fair at school on Thursday and hopefully I find something good. I'm so nervous!

I also feel like I'm so engulfed with pleasing everyone around me that I don't do things for myself. It might be selfish of me, but it's true. I want grow more as a person and be more independent. There's a void that I have yet to fill and I can't seem to find out what that is. Perhaps I'm afraid of change and taking the initiative to do things my way. There are so many people that I don't want to let down. I care about so many people and their well being that I rarely stop to think of my own. I suppose it's something that words cannot express how I feel at the moment, but I hope that I find a cure for it.

I was thinking...how about sponsoring a child? With only twenty-two dollars a month I can make a difference in someone's life. With the little money I have, I think I can spare twenty bucks for them. I'll do my research and see where that takes me.

I shouldn't be complaining about anything because I have more than I deserve. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for all the people around me, because without the love and support I wouldn't have to the courage to do anything at all.

Love,
Len

I know that I may be the type to seclude myself from the rest of the world, I just shut my mouth and keep quiet and hopefully things will smooth out for itself. But sometimes, I just can't take it.

It's hard dealing with stress at home. I feel like I'm trapped in my own house and I certainly don't think I am out of control. My parents just need to learn how to let go and let me figure things out for myself. It starts to get frustrating when every time I tell them I'm going out, they give me shit for it. They make me feel bad that I didn't eat dinner with them or that I have an attitude problem. I need to take more responsibility they say. I know they want the best for me but they are literally tearing me apart by trying to keep me confined.

But that's the least of my problems. I don't know if it's me but I know I'm not close to the people I used to be. Honestly, it sucks. I never really know what's going on anymore. No matter how much I try, things are just not what they used to be. Maybe I am not putting in as much effort as I should be, maybe it's me shutting my mouth again and hoping that things will just pass. Or maybe we all just need our space. But, I am a true believer of things happening for a reason. It'll be a slow process but I'm sure everything will take it's place sooner or later.

On the bright side. I am liking my internship so far. I finally feel like I'm moving forward with my career. I'm learning so much everyday and meeting so many people. I love it! This is a start of a new beginning... Yesah!

First Day of School

One word: SUCKS!

All my classes seem super hard! No more being the shy one in the back. I'm not the type to express my feelings to a room full of strangers and I don't plan on starting, eh I guess I have to. I hate hearing the sound of my own voice! Anyway, I really hope this semester goes by fast because once I'm done--then on to my minor! which is totally EASY.

Working at Chili's, school, and the internship, I don't know where I'll find my free time! BUT! PB Bar and Grill tomorrow night, I'll be there for an event from 9-11pm so I hope to see some of you there! Anyway, just wanted to say a few words on here since I haven't the past couple of weeks. Good luck to everyone on a new semester! Take care :)

Len

2008

My first entry for the new year!

What a year. There were definatley some ups and downs, but that's what makes us who we are today isn't it? There were fun drunken nights, sea world, parties, birthdays, laughs, and tears, but I wouldn't change a thing. I've learned this past year is that no matter what happens, family and friends will always be there for you. Even when the world turns its back on you, I know that I am not alone.

I am excited for this year. A year to start over and learn from my mistakes of the past. My New Year's Resolution is to learn how to prioritize, eat healthier, and be more outspoken. I hope that by years end, I'll quit Chili's and find a real job. Maybe even move out? I guess we'll just have to wait and see...

Too many words...

Stress mixed with excitement mixed with worriedness (is that even a word?) mixed with anxiousness. I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep with Toby all day.

I watched Enchanted and thought it was the cutest movie ever! Thanks Jrew for the complimentary kids combo and viewing of this awesome movie. After we got out of the movie we went to Wal-Mart to buy the soundtrack! Haha, I know corny huh...what made it even weirder was that it was the ONLY thing we bought! There was this one incident that made the night even weirder. Right when we walked inside, I noticed this lady crying to an employee about her "stolen purse." She began to walk around--sobbing and pushing cart full of weird things. Who goes shopping for cookies at 2am? Anyway, I was tempted to buy what she had in her cart since it didn't look like much. But she kept on walking. We attempted to search for her bag until the intercom announced that they found it! She must have misplaced it somewhere or it was scam to make people feel sorry for her and buy her things!

Beer Pong Tournament at Kevin's house. I didn't think we'd make it all the way to the Finals! It was an intense game but my partner and I were victorious. Thanks to the infamous body roll and karate kid ritual. 10 cups filled with 5 beers?! I've never played that way before, so I was proud of our team...I'm up for another challenge. Cant wait for the "game of the century," according to Kevin. I smell a rematch coming soon...

It's hard to type at night because its so cold that my hands start freezing and it literally hurts to go on the computer. When will it stop being COLD!