I know that I may be the type to seclude myself from the rest of the world, I just shut my mouth and keep quiet and hopefully things will smooth out for itself. But sometimes, I just can't take it.

It's hard dealing with stress at home. I feel like I'm trapped in my own house and I certainly don't think I am out of control. My parents just need to learn how to let go and let me figure things out for myself. It starts to get frustrating when every time I tell them I'm going out, they give me shit for it. They make me feel bad that I didn't eat dinner with them or that I have an attitude problem. I need to take more responsibility they say. I know they want the best for me but they are literally tearing me apart by trying to keep me confined.

But that's the least of my problems. I don't know if it's me but I know I'm not close to the people I used to be. Honestly, it sucks. I never really know what's going on anymore. No matter how much I try, things are just not what they used to be. Maybe I am not putting in as much effort as I should be, maybe it's me shutting my mouth again and hoping that things will just pass. Or maybe we all just need our space. But, I am a true believer of things happening for a reason. It'll be a slow process but I'm sure everything will take it's place sooner or later.

On the bright side. I am liking my internship so far. I finally feel like I'm moving forward with my career. I'm learning so much everyday and meeting so many people. I love it! This is a start of a new beginning... Yesah!

First Day of School

One word: SUCKS!

All my classes seem super hard! No more being the shy one in the back. I'm not the type to express my feelings to a room full of strangers and I don't plan on starting, eh I guess I have to. I hate hearing the sound of my own voice! Anyway, I really hope this semester goes by fast because once I'm done--then on to my minor! which is totally EASY.

Working at Chili's, school, and the internship, I don't know where I'll find my free time! BUT! PB Bar and Grill tomorrow night, I'll be there for an event from 9-11pm so I hope to see some of you there! Anyway, just wanted to say a few words on here since I haven't the past couple of weeks. Good luck to everyone on a new semester! Take care :)

Len

2008

My first entry for the new year!

What a year. There were definatley some ups and downs, but that's what makes us who we are today isn't it? There were fun drunken nights, sea world, parties, birthdays, laughs, and tears, but I wouldn't change a thing. I've learned this past year is that no matter what happens, family and friends will always be there for you. Even when the world turns its back on you, I know that I am not alone.

I am excited for this year. A year to start over and learn from my mistakes of the past. My New Year's Resolution is to learn how to prioritize, eat healthier, and be more outspoken. I hope that by years end, I'll quit Chili's and find a real job. Maybe even move out? I guess we'll just have to wait and see...