Please

Hi, school has been creeping up on me! My first test is on Wednesday. I hate taking the first test in a new class because you don't know what to expect. Hopefully I do well! I also have another test the following week! and then another! Aaaah, when will it stop. I should really get my act together. I am also attending the career fair at school on Thursday and hopefully I find something good. I'm so nervous!

I also feel like I'm so engulfed with pleasing everyone around me that I don't do things for myself. It might be selfish of me, but it's true. I want grow more as a person and be more independent. There's a void that I have yet to fill and I can't seem to find out what that is. Perhaps I'm afraid of change and taking the initiative to do things my way. There are so many people that I don't want to let down. I care about so many people and their well being that I rarely stop to think of my own. I suppose it's something that words cannot express how I feel at the moment, but I hope that I find a cure for it.

I was thinking...how about sponsoring a child? With only twenty-two dollars a month I can make a difference in someone's life. With the little money I have, I think I can spare twenty bucks for them. I'll do my research and see where that takes me.

I shouldn't be complaining about anything because I have more than I deserve. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for all the people around me, because without the love and support I wouldn't have to the courage to do anything at all.

Love,
Len